WHAT IS THE TRUE MEANING OF LIFE DAMN
Sunday, September 21, 2014 @ 12:17 AM
Lol, making three posts at a go?
But I got too many things I want to say.
That piece of paper,
I make so many excuses
as for the reason why I want to get it.
"Find a job?"
"Better future?"
But I think the real reason is my pride.
All of my friends are on their way to get their paper.
My cousins too.
If I don't get it,
It feels like I'm a loser in this world,
and I have nothing.
Maybe I'm just jealous of them,
I don't know.
But if I don't fufil this pride of mine,
there is one thing I know for sure,
is that I will truly regret it.
someone please LISTEN
@ 12:17 AM
I don't need many friends, I don't need to be popular.
But no one listens to me.
I try not to be too annoying and a nuisance to people,
so people don't hate me, and will continue to talk to me.
However, it seems like many people, despite being annoying,
has loads of friends?
How does this world function? Does being a complete asshole give you more friends?
But being an asshole, it's not a natural thing for me to do.
I don't want to be an asshole just to get some friends.
I just want somebody to listen to me.
No one EVER will want to listen to my pointless ramblings.
It may be totally pointless to them, but it is not for me.
To me, the things I want to say so badly are hitting the top of my head.
But there is nowhere to spill it,
and thus,
the pressure builds...
At home, or outside,
where are my 'family'?
where are my 'friends'?
Is there no one in this world, that would just listen to me
for perhaps just half an hour,
15 minutes,
5 minutes,
or even just a second?
My existance on this earth, feels like such a nuisance.
No one values my existance, it seems.
The only reason why I'm living now, it's cause
I'm selfishly, desperatly, trying to struggle to survive for myself.
And my fear of disappearing from this earth.
I don't need many friends, I don't need to be popular.
I just want someone to listen to me.
Wow it has been 5 months?
@ 12:10 AM
It has been 5 months since I blogged,
and it seems like my life hasn't been better.
I've hit a wall,
and this wall is so hard to overcome.
I need to learn from Haikyuu, just do whatever it takes to spike thru the wall!
But I don't have anything now at all.
Recently, I also feel like I'm kind of friendless.
Everyone has everybody else to talk to, so they feel no need to talk to me.
But to me, they are the only 'everybody else' I have.
Sad right?
My life is great,
but wall after wall keeps coming, though I do believe many of the walls are built by myself.
How did somethings I love to do
Feel like some kind of stress now?
I wonder......
Soo long never post
Wednesday, April 9, 2014 @ 1:32 AM
Just came back from Taiwan! Happy person!
Taiwan is super fun. I will wanna go back again > 3<
So much food n shopping! Scenery is great too!
Weather-wise wasn't that awesome when it rained. But I love the cooling weather.
And it's not too sunny and hot too.
You know how I hide from the sun, haha.
Time to do some major exercising.
Always say, but too lazy to do. LOL!
Stronger
Saturday, February 15, 2014 @ 12:12 AM
I really need to get stronger!
hate the constant onions near my eyes. Go away!
And as I live each day, I grow and grow stronger.
Grow stronger for this shitty world.
Messed up
Thursday, January 30, 2014 @ 1:45 AM
I messed up in life, But it is okay if I learn from my mistakes.
Quite a grave mistake indeed, but at least I learn and change.
What about you?
You know, it takes two hands to clap. I am really sorry I clapped on my side, but what about you? Why did that clap happen, did you ever think?
I don't think I want or need to know the reason, cuz it doesn't matter anymore.
I just wanna say, Fuck Yourself :D
(I am sorry for everything else, but not for that. Haha)
Decison
Sunday, January 26, 2014 @ 1:33 AM
I'm gonna get my paper~
While I work on my port c:
I don't know what paper to get for the time being..
So maybe I'll work 1st, while thinking what paper to get??
Paperpperpepr
I want that piece of papeprer
But once I start working my way towards that piece of paper,
Do I still have the time to work on my port?
I think many do.. I'm not sure if I'm able to cope, but yeah
paperpeprepreprrrr Paperrr~~
what paper should I get~ ooohhh~~
poly life
@ 12:20 AM
I reallly hated it during my 1st year
But it got better during the 2nd year
And after the second sem where I chose the modelling elective
I love poly life so much
It sucked, but yet it rocked, it was so ultra tiring
But it was happy times. I will definitely miss poly :') And mad studios! Lol!
It really became my second home already...
Love everyone~
I would never imagine a studying place with such cozy environment
It's freezing tho
But it's awesome.. It's comfy c:
Lucky my computer's good too
How leh
Now that I'm gonnna grad
I'mmm so conflicted
STUDY? OR WORK
I wan that piece of paper but dk what paper to get
urgh
I love what I'm doing now
But I'll just leave it as a hobby c:
And find a better job
And get my friggin paper
Okay~
New yearrsss
Thursday, January 2, 2014 @ 2:08 AM
New years' eve was kinda shitty
But I was very happy on new years c:
Morning went ntuc with parents~ Then dabao lunch home XD~~
Then I dyed my hair!! Mom helped me.. Wahaha~~
The colour turned out not so bad c: It was great haha
Then dinner went pastamania! At ehub.
Forgot to take photo D; But it's okay c: I'll remember this forever ^^
Seafood Tom yam pasta is so yummy~~ Mom ordered one too c:
Father ordered Mariana.. At 1st I wanted that.. Glad I took the Tom yam one.. Tastyyyy
Sis took seafood Zuppa .. And we ordered one pepperoni pizza ..
So happy~~ XD
Then went ntuc awhile since we had time
Bought some aisu :D:D:D:D And random stuff. Father bought satay, toasted it at night to eat
yum yum~~ Should have more of these XDXDXD
So happy~
I love these times~~
I hope they'll go on forever c: But I feel sad that it will not go on forever TTATT
Cherish the moment then c: Love everyone~
So picky
Sunday, December 22, 2013 @ 8:50 PM
Damn it..
D:
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