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Will not speak about this matter anymore
Sunday, April 22, 2012 @ 10:45 PM
Well, I'm thinking this but not in the romantic or love kind of way. Someone close to me is putting me down on what I'm studying right now.
She says that I have no talent in drawing and that I don't have a
future. And she says that alot. I have enough of hearing those words.
Every day I think that I will sleep in the streets and eat grass next
time. That I'll do really badly and become jobless and loll around doing
nothing all day. Just a useless piece of meat. I understand it's not
the most "ideal" thing to study, and there are many reasons why I kind
of regret it right now. But since this decision, and the decision to
continue is made already, why not support me instead of throwing me into
the gutter and crush all my hopes and dreams?
Anyway this will be the last time I'll be speaking about this because it does not help dwelling about it all the time. I shall just channel all my energy into working hard, get out of my psychological slump, and climb out of the gutters ^^
(Image from here, source unknown, possibly a manga. Looks like a guy from a gay manga tho! Lol! I don't read BL of any kind...just got the vibe lol)
Blogger changed!!!!!1
Saturday, April 21, 2012 @ 7:04 PM
Ok I heard that it has changed long ago but I refused to change hahas. Okay anyway when I said I had drawing hw SOMEONE had to say I don't have talent again. Nvm...After sch started I felt that I have more confidence in doing my work (Alright this wouldn't last long). But anyways, I felt better than during the hols lol. So anyway instead of whining and crying I think I should work hard instead to show that I ACTUALLY HAVE TALENT (Even if it's just a tiny little bit) Now go suck it, u jelly u can't draw and I can. No one starts out awesome (YOU SAID IT YOURSELF BEFORE AND NOW WTF?) So yeah. You're the reason why my confidence is in the gutters right now. Now. There's no turning back so WHY CAN'T U JUST STFU ABOUT ME HAVING NO TALENT! I HAD ENOUGH ALREADY! I WILL SHOW YOU ONE DAY! YOU THINK JC IS EASY? BETTER? MORE FUTURE? OH YEAH? SO WHAT IF IT DOES? WHAT THE HELL CAN I DO NOW? JUST SUCK IT ALL AND CONTINUE STUDYING RIGHT. SO PLEASE STOP SAYING I HAVE NO TALENT/NO FUTURE! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ANY OF THOSE SHITS ANYMORE!!!! IF YOU THINK BEING A DOCTOR/LAWYER/ACCOUNTANT HAS MORE FUTURE THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU BRAINWASH ME LAST TIME INSTEAD OF SUGAR-COATING YOUR WORDS AND SAYING "U SEE PARENTS NOWADAYS FORCE THEIR CHILDREN TO GO TO TUITION, BLABLABLA!" YOU ARE THE EXACT SAME AS THEM! SO DON'T ACT LIKE YOU'RE DIFFERENT FROM THEM. BECAUSE YOU ARE NOT! YOU ARE ADDING TO THE VERY STRESS I AM HAVING NOW. SO, PLEASE, JUST SHUT THE HELL UP ABOUT ME HAVING NO TALENT. IT'S NOT HELPING AT ALL. NOT HELPING. I WILL NOT BE HINDERED BY THOSE USELESS WORDS ANYMORE. THAT'S NOT THE WAY TO SAY THINGS. I ALREADY KNOW VERY, VERY WELL BY MYSELF THAT MY DRAWING ISN'T THE BEST. AND I DON'T NEED SOMEONE TO SPOUT NONSENSE BESIDE MY EAR SAYING THAT I'M LOUSY ALL THE TIME. IT AIN'T GONNA MAKE ME IMPROVE. NOW. GO WATCH YOUR DRAMAS AND STOP SAYING UNNECCESSARY STUFF TO ME. I AM AT MY LIMIT ALREADY. IF YOU'RE GONNA SAY ANYMORE I AM JUST GOING TO EXPLODE INTO LOTS OF PIECES. I HAVE LEARNT FROM PEOPLE THAT NO MATTER WHAT YOU STUDY, IF YOU DON'T MAKE AN EFFORT YOU WON'T HAVE A FUTURE. STUDYING SCIENCE ISN'T GOING TO GUARANTEE YOU A GOD DAMN JOB. I TELL YA I DON'T LIKE WHAT I'M STUDYING NOW AND ALL I HAVE IS JUST A LITTLE BIT OF MOTIVATION TO STUDY ON. FUCK IF U KEEP SAYING RUBBISH YOU'RE JUST CRUSHING ALL THAT BIT OF MOTIVATION I HAVE LEFT. SO PLEASE FUCKING STOP SAYING THOSE FUCKING USELESS STUFF!
Alright, I'm so sorry. Don't read those words in CAPS. I feel a little better now lol
This is so cool!!
Saturday, April 14, 2012 @ 8:57 AM
Found out something cool on 9gag.. is like making your own "song" kinda thing hehes Mine is here http://www.incredibox.fr/?music=1334365038-3349 I dedicated it to myself LOL!!!!!! (and fine to all my readers too hahahah) Stupid song title too cuz I'm too lazy to think of something...nice. Hehes
I woke up ultra early today for some reason. Hmmmmmm Time to eat!! I think cuz I'm hungry. I had stomach pain before I slept ytd. Maybe too hungry hoho
Lolz my mom's scared that I'll become weird and crazy after I joined something related to the arts. Ok...I think I'll die instead of becoming weird/crazy Lols. WTF 16 year old self.. WHY WHY WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
short post ^^
Tuesday, April 10, 2012 @ 1:21 AM
Well, my life up till now was kinda a lifeless life, what can I say ^^ fb-ing, 9gagging, mapling, reading manga wheeee, and I slacked alot, alot on drawing recently. hohos
And I realised...I'm irritating ;o; No one told me that, and they wouldn't also, but I think I am irritating. I think I talk too much Lol And rant and saying stuff that they don't care about.
But no one's perfect right ^^ *self-consoling lulz*
Ok and despite all my rude scolding in the previous post. I AM gonna work hard lol. If not whut. Give up and die? No no no. I wanna grad with flying colours ahahaha
Can I get 3.5? Maybe...... (As much as I wanna say "YES!!!", I'm not that kind of a confident person.)
I seem like some prick with bipolar disorder now Lol ... Am I having PUBERTY?? LOL!! Late puberty? HAHA!! Means I still got chance to grow tall lehs...
Anyway few months back I was saying how HORRIBLE Blue Exorcist was.. Few days ago I was bored and decided to read it. And hell it was a great manga. Less demon-ey than I expected it to be. And it's actually interesting! Well sometimes u gotta give things a second chance I guess. But that can mean you might fall into the same trap twice. Chances, chances. Sigh
I know I'm frickin' slow but I recently started playing Draw Something. SLOW RIGHT LAWLZ!!!! If you see this n you know me u can start a game with me if u wan...ehehehs I'll try to respond quick ^^
Sch is starting... Ahhhh...I kinda anticipate it but I don't want to go to sch too...what the... hahahas. Gonna deco my table in a few days. I have no idea what to deco tho and have been bugging people about it (and thus, coming to the conclusion that I'm irritating). I wanna make Rin n Kuro paper dolls now ^^ and put in class
It's 1.33 am and I'm not sleepy at all. Holidays totally screwed my body clock up. PROBLEM, BODY? But in a few years time, my body will troll me back. Twice as hard.
P.S. I intended this to be a short post when I started typing it, but it ended up... Like this. Hohohoho
Hi, I'm Yan Min and welcome to my blog of ramblings wahahahaha...
I love anime n manga but I'm not an otaku
I love to doodle n draw n I hope I can improve
Normally listen to Korean, Japanese n English songs. Mostly SHINee n Anime OP & ED
I like drawing n painting. And hope to learn piano one day. And maybe the violin. And maybe some cool martial art. And maybe some other cool stuff
But in the end. I never bring my ass to learn new things
Cuz. I love to sleep. And loll around...
Some all time favourites of mine include: Katekyo Hitman Reborn, Honey and Clover, Nodame Cantabile, SHINee, Axis Powers Hetalia
My second homes (?): CAPS 1A,2/1,3/3,4/3,5/3,6/3, AHS 1F,2G,3K,4K and now in SP DDA :)
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