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did i say? now i tell u.
Friday, March 15, 2013 @ 3:11 AM
did i say i was perfect?
did i say i love myself? no
i too, am ashamed
that as a sg-citizen
i am friggin slack myself
i am too dependent
i am spoilt
i am selfish and kiasu n irritating
complain too frickin much
complain nia but dun do anything
but complain.
u wan to know why? did i used to complain this much about life when i was like, 17?
no
u will never understand
how
ppl
look down
on people
like me
on walking a road
that supposedly have
"no future"
i dislike it
when i wear my sp tshirt
and see my sec sch ppl (those that know i exist, but don't know me personally)
i feel that
all their brain can think of is
"wow, she go poly cuz her result not good enough to go jc"
u know how that feels?
no
i have been told
it's all my own imagination
but, i can't help but think that.
yes, i chose this road myself
i sucked it up and continued walking
but i am not god
i feel weary
angry, irritated,
alot of times at myself
for being so lousy
for not working hard enough
for working so hard and yet still can't produce result
for having no talent.
esp when u pick a path no one took
esp when u walk your own road.
u think 2 years is not alot
when i was 17, i never knew
but now, everything has built in me
that the world is ugly
and it has clouded my mind
i ignored. i swallowed.
i swallowed many things for 2 years.
many, many things.
my fyp is coming soon
and my fyp's film is not gonna be easy. it's real tough n shit.
holidays doesn't mean
all my problems are gone
doesn't mean that all the world's problems are gone.
u jelly i got hol until april?
go ahead
and live my life
u go live my life. u wan try? u wan anot?
that being said
i dunwan to live your life.
cuz even tho i hate myself, i still embrace myself.
why? cuz it's me
i have to stick with myself for like the rest of my life. haha
yes, not all doctors/lawyers/etc look down on people
i never said they were they ones looking down on people
I tell ppl "animation so busy, i always chiong"
u know what people tell me? you know what ppl tell me when i never sleep at all just to do hw?
" i thought animation very slack de "
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i am sorry
that i piss u off. today i was in a bad mood.
i am sorry
to tell u that
i read your blog sometimes
n i know u write about me
i am sorry
i do stupid things like throw tissue across the room
i dun wan to do stupid things. but i cannot take it.
if i could i would have smashed my head against the wall
but smashing my head on the wall is too painful n too troublesome.
why i can smile today
is because
i know i am fortunate
i have many blessings
in this beautiful world
made ugly by humans.
Hi, I'm Yan Min and welcome to my blog of ramblings wahahahaha...
I love anime n manga but I'm not an otaku
I love to doodle n draw n I hope I can improve
Normally listen to Korean, Japanese n English songs. Mostly SHINee n Anime OP & ED
I like drawing n painting. And hope to learn piano one day. And maybe the violin. And maybe some cool martial art. And maybe some other cool stuff
But in the end. I never bring my ass to learn new things
Cuz. I love to sleep. And loll around...
Some all time favourites of mine include: Katekyo Hitman Reborn, Honey and Clover, Nodame Cantabile, SHINee, Axis Powers Hetalia
My second homes (?): CAPS 1A,2/1,3/3,4/3,5/3,6/3, AHS 1F,2G,3K,4K and now in SP DDA :)
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