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WHAT IS THE TRUE MEANING OF LIFE DAMN
Sunday, September 21, 2014 @ 12:17 AM
Lol, making three posts at a go?
But I got too many things I want to say.
That piece of paper,
I make so many excuses
as for the reason why I want to get it.
"Find a job?"
"Better future?"
But I think the real reason is my pride.
All of my friends are on their way to get their paper.
My cousins too.
If I don't get it,
It feels like I'm a loser in this world,
and I have nothing.
Maybe I'm just jealous of them,
I don't know.
But if I don't fufil this pride of mine,
there is one thing I know for sure,
is that I will truly regret it.
someone please LISTEN
@ 12:17 AM
I don't need many friends, I don't need to be popular.
But no one listens to me.
I try not to be too annoying and a nuisance to people,
so people don't hate me, and will continue to talk to me.
However, it seems like many people, despite being annoying,
has loads of friends?
How does this world function? Does being a complete asshole give you more friends?
But being an asshole, it's not a natural thing for me to do.
I don't want to be an asshole just to get some friends.
I just want somebody to listen to me.
No one EVER will want to listen to my pointless ramblings.
It may be totally pointless to them, but it is not for me.
To me, the things I want to say so badly are hitting the top of my head.
But there is nowhere to spill it,
and thus,
the pressure builds...
At home, or outside,
where are my 'family'?
where are my 'friends'?
Is there no one in this world, that would just listen to me
for perhaps just half an hour,
15 minutes,
5 minutes,
or even just a second?
My existance on this earth, feels like such a nuisance.
No one values my existance, it seems.
The only reason why I'm living now, it's cause
I'm selfishly, desperatly, trying to struggle to survive for myself.
And my fear of disappearing from this earth.
I don't need many friends, I don't need to be popular.
I just want someone to listen to me.
Wow it has been 5 months?
@ 12:10 AM
It has been 5 months since I blogged,
and it seems like my life hasn't been better.
I've hit a wall,
and this wall is so hard to overcome.
I need to learn from Haikyuu, just do whatever it takes to spike thru the wall!
But I don't have anything now at all.
Recently, I also feel like I'm kind of friendless.
Everyone has everybody else to talk to, so they feel no need to talk to me.
But to me, they are the only 'everybody else' I have.
Sad right?
My life is great,
but wall after wall keeps coming, though I do believe many of the walls are built by myself.
How did somethings I love to do
Feel like some kind of stress now?
Hi, I'm Yan Min and welcome to my blog of ramblings wahahahaha...
I love anime n manga but I'm not an otaku
I love to doodle n draw n I hope I can improve
Normally listen to Korean, Japanese n English songs. Mostly SHINee n Anime OP & ED
I like drawing n painting. And hope to learn piano one day. And maybe the violin. And maybe some cool martial art. And maybe some other cool stuff
But in the end. I never bring my ass to learn new things
Cuz. I love to sleep. And loll around...
Some all time favourites of mine include: Katekyo Hitman Reborn, Honey and Clover, Nodame Cantabile, SHINee, Axis Powers Hetalia
My second homes (?): CAPS 1A,2/1,3/3,4/3,5/3,6/3, AHS 1F,2G,3K,4K and now in SP DDA :)
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